Look what you made me do

I wish I was in your bed right now

I wish you were naked and warm

Beneath my skin

I wish your hands were wrapped around

My waist, stroking

Clenching, relaxing

While I cling to your neck

My fingernails tracing lazy patterns

On your back

I wish I was in between your sheets

How and why

Does a man’s sheets feel different

I wish I was entangled

In the full length of your arms

Leg swung over your side

My generous thighs

Resting on your slender hip

Careful not to hit, hurt or squish

Careless, teasing.
Wake up, come hither.

I wish I was not alone

Halfway across the world

Sun about to wake my side

Yours in the early night

We could just be

Idly chatting

Not time to sleep, yet

I would settle for

Just sleep in your bed

No monkey business

Funny how it is

To pine for somebody so far

There is no immediate antidote

(you take whatever you can get

do you really need so little back?

almost nothing to go on with

is this the death of your self-respect

or maybe
just a tad bit delusional
wishful thinking, assuming)

Funny how one person

Can consume so much of your thoughts

Do you really know him

Or do you just

Think of him way too much

Does he think of you as much

Does it matter

I love you, it’s none of your business

It really is none of your business

I should just deal with my shit

Take care of this problem

Shouldn’t I?

Or maybe I should try

To be a little more patient

Impatient one

Let you deal with your own issues first

Yours fare worse than mine

When you speak of

Damaging your soul

(in my own words)

Oh I so want to take care of you

And fuck you senseless all in one breath

TRex

Try to read between the lines
What I'm not saying
But actually mean

For such a smart man

For someone who is so sensitive

I don't know if you're playing numb
Or just plain ignorant

You used to pick up on
Little nuisances
Now, nothing

Try. Try for fuck's sake

Try to remember what I said before

Try to feel what I'm feeling

Try to understand
What I'm dying to tell you
Say again
But too disheartened to
Now

After I already did
And you said your thanks

Try to

Read between the lines
And goodbyes

And know why this is necessary.

Dinosaur

there is no immediate release from this
all I can do is
wait it out
ride it out

I love you

I was unburdened
then shy

shied away from you

I am impatient
and insecure

and the distance
time zones
is not helping