one last time

I want to talk to you
but I shouldn't

I want to convince you
but it would probably be half-hearted

we've done this several times already
we fight terribly
we break up
then we get back together

I hate when you say we're not compatible
cos I know you're probably right

we are two very different person
with very same serious flaws

and I thought that would be our thing
what would make us stronger
last longer
cos our love would always be hard at work

I do not know when to quit

but you are so good at making me realize things
that I already know

but should you want to try again
my god. I would. in a heartbeat.

that's how I love you badly.

stupid little girl.

oh.

isn't it so annoying and cliche
that on the day i threw out
the once beautiful, blooming and colorful bouquet
you gave me
now brown and wilted and dehydrated and sad
we called it quits.

I didn't want to

like what my sign says about me
I am fiercely loyal

on that day that I decided
I want to ride it out with you
I wasn't making idle promises

like how you once put how you felt about me
I was tied to you

you are many things I was looking for
and many things surprising
that I wanted and needed

until now I am not mad
nor disagreeing
about the things you said about me
and all my flaws

and isn't so awesome and degrading
to hear you fears
and shortcomings
you think of day in day out
come from the mouth
of someone you are in love with

like I so. Want. Need.
to work it out with you
cos you can see through the bullshit

but I need
a little more faith

and I can feel that I have drained out
all that you have left for me