Favourites

I am in love with the universe
there
I figured it out

I do not love you
you who blew my mind
whose photos I keep
touch I constantly remember
your smile it haunts me
I constantly want to talk to you
no
'tis not love
(the word 'tis belongs to you too)

nor you
who I said I love you to
cause you said it first
and I knew you didn't mean it
we were just saying it
because we both knew
how ridiculous it could probably be

ah that unexpected phone call
in a Japanese restaurant
in Notting Hill
your lazy accent
and drawling
dear lord
if you weren't such a male specimen
I swear you sound so gay

you said I should stay
and we could get married
have beautiful babies

wasn't the first time you said that
you rapped something
along those lines

oh white boys that rap
such a cute effort

your house
your gay flatmate
how you endlessly chatter
how you endlessly remind me of me

intense meets intense
nerdy but all man
quick to laugh
ah the perfect lover

no I do not love you
my British music producer in the making
nor you
my beautiful working class Dutch-Persian

though in those moments
I felt loved
I felt love

kissing on the streets of Europe
a stroll in the field

words only lovers utter
your boss perfume
grasping in between violet purple sheets
stolen moments by the pub

oh love

oh universe