The 4AM Log

I just woke up from a dream.
I was running.
It started out normal, like a normal day,
a normal memory
Though the people were all jumbled up
Friends from grade school
friends from high school
friends from now through the business
Friend C wanted to see
T's house
apparently she is loaded.
In a neighbourhood I used to live in
(tho it didn't look anything like the real one)
There was normal girl gossip
one I was not partaking in
Judgement passed on another girl
just cause she was eager and curious.
People looking for people.
Vague reasons.
Then I took off for a while.
I started running.
On an off.
Mostly to speed things up.
Mostly to take a shortcut.
When I came back,
the place where I have left them in has become
a church.
A mass, a wedding, a big ass congregation.
Saw friends again
why them, why  this people
My group has already left
I see them walking away
I call out
but in the throng of people
I am not heard.
I see friend T.
She owned the house
My things are with her
she hands them over
a bit of chatter
I see another old friend as T was leaving
a big coat on her
complaining to her sister
(I also see G, I encourage him with his career
he flashes a big, frozen, empty smile
one that is just plastered on
one that you do not mean)
She has a problem with what she is wearing
no one told her that THIS this is what she was wearing
to this wedding
took a second
before I realized
her dress was hideous
I was talking
then we had to break the conversation up
I was leaving again
I see an old friend
a once client
a friend who has unfriended me
Her husband beside her
I told her, cheerfully
I am going to Europe
*silence*
How have you been, I ask
Somewhere in between
a shrug and a smirk
delivered with a frown and a look of disgust
Ah. She still hasn't forgiven me.
I took off running.
and another one disappointed in me,
Run.
through the church
through buildings
through streets
by the pools
up and down inside the village
Grass
concrete
wood
Where I shouldn't pass
I am running
on fours now, maybe
I feel the part of my arm below the elbows
hitting the ground as I run
maybe I am part animal now
I run
run more
Don't really care
where I am going
at first I thought I was just finding my way
out of this old place
on the way home
Now I am just endlessly running
up, down
up, down
flat.
Like a video game
through houses
and backyards
and gardens
Now I am running
and people take notice
They point at me.
They come after me.
I didn't realize they were hunting me down.
I have become
part monster
part animal
And they want to punish me
hurt me
eradicate me
I am defensive and I continue on running
to make a point
I easily pick one guy up
have I become a giant?
I scale a wall
he is in my hands
I eat his head off
blood, blood, chew
His friend tries
to cut me
but I am way up on the wall
he tries to cut me
and he almost chops off
my toes
but I fled again
I am running once more
I bounce and leap
and I hear them
oooh and aaah
and scream
I feel their fear.
And this time I am trying to escape.
I have not realized,
I have become something they fear.
I am something they do not understand.
then I wake up.